I HATE MY ALLERGIES!

In case you weren't aware...

I hate having to sit at a birthday party drinking water while everyone else is eating chocolate cake.

I hate the fact that my family got stuck with BRINGING THE FRICKING CAKE HOME so that now it's IN OUR HOUSE!

I hate the fact that I've been craving these particular store-bought chocolate chip cookies ALL WEEK at school, only to arrive home and find a big box full of them in the cupboard that I have to open all the time and see. 

I hate that I'm all alone in a new place wanting to make friends, and that people invite me to have dinner with them, and I have to turn them down. 

I hate that someone wrote on the mirror at school: "Candy...bad for your body, good for your soul...EAT SOME!!!!"  Shut the eff up.   

I hate it when people go ON and ON to my face about HOW GOOD their food is, even when they know about my allergies.

I hate it that certain people JUST DON'T GET IT when I say "I'm allergic to sugar," and then keep offering me candy.

I also hate it when, after I've continually refused candy, they tell other people that "She doesn't like candy."  I love sugar, for the record, it just doesn't love me back. 

I hate feeling like I've lost a part of my identity.  I am someone who loves peanut butter, creamy Greek yogurt, cheesecake and pizza.  I'm still that person but it doesn't feel right to say so anymore.  

I hate being chained to pills.  I hate having to be late for class because I forgot to bring my pills that I have to eat before lunch and having to cycle like a madwoman across campus when I'm supposed to be taking a quiz, so that I don't have to be in extreme pain after eating. 

I hate that food has the power to do this to me, and I hate that I cry because I miss certain foods.

I hate feeling stupid, pathetic, hurt and alone.